It's the Saturday after Thanksgiving....Nov. 30, 2013.
We are in Vermont,
and it is all snowy and wintery and sunny and cold
I write (o.k. SURF the inter webs) while my beloved sleeps.
In a while, we will exercise,
go to lunch,
at this point, I really ought to be further along in my preparations for Sunday, First Sunday in Advent.
But I am not.
I believe I am overthinking my sermon,
wanting to be succinct, and smart, and brilliant, and educated and erudite
in the words
that are waiting to be written, expressed...
I want to be more honed, more clever,
more...probably more of what I think I SHOULD be, rather than who I am.
Help me rest in that thought God...
I do want to be more faithful in my preparation,
more in tune with your Spirit.
Not what I think I should be, or what I think others want,
what you want....the Word that best reflects your Message to this particular time and place and people that I am serving on behalf of you these days.
let go of my insecurities (yes, I have those, and I need to admit this)
be completely enveloped
in your Spirit...
Help me just simply be,
and to trust in You,
and to trust in me,
and to trust this process
of listening and writing and meditating.
Take me over with your Love, dear God.
I am working on being wide open to You.