Thursday, September 15, 2011

And we are offffff!!!!!!!

the program year has started with an incredible...whoosshhh.

In other words, really busy.  

I am still where I was planted five plus years ago, and getting used to having a new interim senior colleague.    This is going fine.  Different, getting used to it, fine.  As an interim situation, I suspect that I am very lucky.  

It's just not the place I envisioned being in when we moved here 6 years ago.

I  adore my congregation.  I love my work.   Don't get me wrong.    I also am very, very, very weary of the being the second pastor.   Kind of sort of ready to be in my own gig.  Have been for some time.

However, I know this is not the plan of the universe, for now, and that I am where I am supposed to be for now.

 There are times I rejoice--I love watching our children grow up--I mean, really, J is in middle school this fall???  And oh, how grown up N is!!  I am grateful that I know R's story, so that in this current transition, I can be fully, pastorally there (as best I can).....It's all really a gift, you know?

There are times I am embarrassed--that I am STILL an associate pastor (just naming it--I know better--but it is a part of how I feel)  and there are times I am bewildered.    I know the Gentle Divine gets it.  

And tonight,
As the temperature changes, and a cool breeze is wafting in the open window, I am every so humbled and welcoming of that great Gentleness.



  1. I think it's perfectly reasonable to name it, dear friend. Your gifts are plentiful, and I'm eager to see how God will use them in the future.

  2. God is preparing a place for you, and when that place is ready for you, you will each fond one another...and, it will be delightful. I speak from the heart, and from that place of despair that has been transformed. Name it, hope for it, give God your yearning....God will respond, in Gods time....sigh.

    Love you!

  3. I hope you'll follow whatever is calling. It is okay to be in a holding pattern--sounds like you are keeping your eyes open.